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03-29-2005, 08:27 AM
I posted this in my journal, yes; but, given how frustrated I feel, and how desperate I am for advice, I thought I'd cross-post it here. Forgive me.
I need some help here:
If anyone happens to be reading this -- if so, I apologize, as I realize that few things on earth are quite as soporific as my tendency toward excessive introspection and consequent maudlin self-excoriation -- I'd like your thoughts on the following observations:
1) Over the past ten days, there is no way I've eaten, on average, eucalorically; and over the past three or four days, things have only worsened. My lifts have decreased somewhat, particular yesterday; I feel unaccountably tired, my legs listless, my thoughts hazed and often absent entirely. And when I write "eucalorically," I refer to the intake that was previously necessary for me to maintain, even to slowly gain, when doing far less cardio than I've done over the past ten days. Hence, while maintenance has likely increased, my intake has -- at least over the timespan in question -- decreased.
2) Despite this, I feel, somehow, as if I've put on appreciable fat in this time-span. Yet this is not sufficient time to deposit noticeable subcutaneous adipose tissue, no? Hence, is it not reasonable that my muscles are simply depleted, that I'm "flat", etc? My vascularity -- my "cutness," if you will -- has noticeably decreased; and I certainly feel smaller. Hell, just two weeks ago I was tested at 6.5% BF%; my lifts were increasing; I felt strong, satisfied, and superb.
I don't know how to account for this. I want to say that I've gained fat -- but is that possible over such a timespan? And I wonder why I'm neither as vascular, nor as full, nor as cut as I was. The reason I ask is that I'm struggling to find the will to keep eating the 2500cal/day I've been eating (for the past two days, that is; over the past two weeks, I was averaging much less than this). I want desperately to start restricting again...
Any ideas?
I need some help here:
If anyone happens to be reading this -- if so, I apologize, as I realize that few things on earth are quite as soporific as my tendency toward excessive introspection and consequent maudlin self-excoriation -- I'd like your thoughts on the following observations:
1) Over the past ten days, there is no way I've eaten, on average, eucalorically; and over the past three or four days, things have only worsened. My lifts have decreased somewhat, particular yesterday; I feel unaccountably tired, my legs listless, my thoughts hazed and often absent entirely. And when I write "eucalorically," I refer to the intake that was previously necessary for me to maintain, even to slowly gain, when doing far less cardio than I've done over the past ten days. Hence, while maintenance has likely increased, my intake has -- at least over the timespan in question -- decreased.
2) Despite this, I feel, somehow, as if I've put on appreciable fat in this time-span. Yet this is not sufficient time to deposit noticeable subcutaneous adipose tissue, no? Hence, is it not reasonable that my muscles are simply depleted, that I'm "flat", etc? My vascularity -- my "cutness," if you will -- has noticeably decreased; and I certainly feel smaller. Hell, just two weeks ago I was tested at 6.5% BF%; my lifts were increasing; I felt strong, satisfied, and superb.
I don't know how to account for this. I want to say that I've gained fat -- but is that possible over such a timespan? And I wonder why I'm neither as vascular, nor as full, nor as cut as I was. The reason I ask is that I'm struggling to find the will to keep eating the 2500cal/day I've been eating (for the past two days, that is; over the past two weeks, I was averaging much less than this). I want desperately to start restricting again...
Any ideas?