TopCat
05-24-2006, 11:49 PM
Hahaha, yes that is right. This is my PMS journal. Well... kind of. Except im talking about physical mental and spiritual as opposed to premenstrual syndrome.
Heres the deal. I am SICK AND TIRED of going at something half of what I can do and not getting anywhere. Also I am sick of not living my life like I want to. So here it is, my life is going to be flooded onto here for time to come, regardless of what other people think or if anyone actually reads it.
Little background and introduction since absolutely no one on here knows me but I feel like I know many of you well. I'm the silent reader. Under this account ive been a member since the fall. However, I first stumbled upon this site about 2 years ago. I have become very serious about lifting since about august of last year and have made great gains (gah why didnt I take pictures). I consider myself a strong Christian and im in pharmacy school, which respectively are my two priorities in life.
My Goals:
Lifting: I weigh 183 (or did other day) and by the end of summer I want to smash 200.
Mental: My school work has been ridiculous, undergrad I was near 4.0. Now im hovering around 2.5 Disgusting, but coming undercontrol and reworking my study habits
Spiritual: One thing Ive learned this year, lifting and my walk with Christ are very similiar, they both require serious dedication and commitment, sadly something I lack in both departments.
Alright, back to lifting. In the past two months my body weight has done the following:
185 --(4-5 weeks)--> 167 --(3-4 weeks)-> 185
Eventually I need to get some pictures to show where im at currently, nice base, just need some more meat. Anyways, ive taken the plunge and im very excited, time to take this SERIOUS. 200, HERE I COME!
My main problem? Obviously not eating enough as I can never do a long term serious bulk. Ill admit I dont like putting on a lot of fat and try and do a slow and clean bulk but at this point im willing to say screw it.
Today: Was bad, plain and simple. Had a hard exam and skills lab in which I had to counsel my professors on various OTC medications for treatment of GI disorders... yuck. Morning, a shake (2 cups of skim milk, 2 scoops of powder ~50g protein) later a MRB. Came home exhausted due to family problems, took down some cashews and had a no fat yogurt. Took a nap, got up finished a research paper another MRB (im out of food atm). Realized I have had nothing so far today and hosed down another shake, some Natural peanut butter (NPB from here on out) and another 2 cups of milk. Could of easily gone to bed without eating but cant cheat myself like that anymore.
Nice meeting all you out there, feels good to finally post on the forums ive been reading so much! See you all tomorrow.... er... today.. later
Heres the deal. I am SICK AND TIRED of going at something half of what I can do and not getting anywhere. Also I am sick of not living my life like I want to. So here it is, my life is going to be flooded onto here for time to come, regardless of what other people think or if anyone actually reads it.
Little background and introduction since absolutely no one on here knows me but I feel like I know many of you well. I'm the silent reader. Under this account ive been a member since the fall. However, I first stumbled upon this site about 2 years ago. I have become very serious about lifting since about august of last year and have made great gains (gah why didnt I take pictures). I consider myself a strong Christian and im in pharmacy school, which respectively are my two priorities in life.
My Goals:
Lifting: I weigh 183 (or did other day) and by the end of summer I want to smash 200.
Mental: My school work has been ridiculous, undergrad I was near 4.0. Now im hovering around 2.5 Disgusting, but coming undercontrol and reworking my study habits
Spiritual: One thing Ive learned this year, lifting and my walk with Christ are very similiar, they both require serious dedication and commitment, sadly something I lack in both departments.
Alright, back to lifting. In the past two months my body weight has done the following:
185 --(4-5 weeks)--> 167 --(3-4 weeks)-> 185
Eventually I need to get some pictures to show where im at currently, nice base, just need some more meat. Anyways, ive taken the plunge and im very excited, time to take this SERIOUS. 200, HERE I COME!
My main problem? Obviously not eating enough as I can never do a long term serious bulk. Ill admit I dont like putting on a lot of fat and try and do a slow and clean bulk but at this point im willing to say screw it.
Today: Was bad, plain and simple. Had a hard exam and skills lab in which I had to counsel my professors on various OTC medications for treatment of GI disorders... yuck. Morning, a shake (2 cups of skim milk, 2 scoops of powder ~50g protein) later a MRB. Came home exhausted due to family problems, took down some cashews and had a no fat yogurt. Took a nap, got up finished a research paper another MRB (im out of food atm). Realized I have had nothing so far today and hosed down another shake, some Natural peanut butter (NPB from here on out) and another 2 cups of milk. Could of easily gone to bed without eating but cant cheat myself like that anymore.
Nice meeting all you out there, feels good to finally post on the forums ive been reading so much! See you all tomorrow.... er... today.. later