I had no other way of explaining the title, but over the course of the last few months about once every two weeks. I eat and splurge, I get all overheated and then I cannot stop thinking about throwing up once the feeling kicks in, and then I throw everything up.

Last night I had done it again, and I'm prescribed xanax for my eating disorder or whatever you want to call it. But the real question I'm concerned with, is throwing up possibly 4-5 times over the span of the past 2 1/2 months, or maybe once every two weeks going to ruin my body that I cannot grow muscle, or possibly even stunt myself. Because you hear of women who were bulimic in their earlier days that cannot conceive a baby now or else their bodies are small and messed up.

So what I want to know is, am I doing any really permanent damage so far. And so far today I haven't eaten **** because of a cold I just received.