Barbells,Boobies and Baggage; Origins of Hatred.

[Hatred]

I have thought about starting an online journal for awhile. I figure at the very least this will be yet another form of motivation, and another way to get information and a kick in the ass when I need it.
info will be more detailed as time goes on so bear with me and watch your little boy grow up....

woke up at 7:30
ate
1 can of tuna packed in water
1 cup lowfat yogurt
1 cup cottage cheese 1% milkfat
2 cups of oatmeal small amount of sugar(pinch)
12 oz 2% milk
12oz water

meal two+three
1 8 oz boneless skinless chicken breast
1 cup cottage cheese
1 can of tuna
1 liter of water

Tonight will be interesting as I am heading back to the gym after a shoulder injury so I will be taking it easy. I have been running,and doing pushups to keep it light and remain active.
Yet I feel "squishy"

I will not be able to add workout info till the am.
weight and stats will come tomorrow for the sake of accuracy
I am getting about 3800 cals and 430 grams of protein a day with about 190 grams of carbs. so we will see how this diet works.
I plan on doing a lot more cardio until the "squishiness"is gone.

Most recent stats
age:23
Height 6'2"
weight(most recent)218
bf??15-20??no idea I will go get it checked

Well OK I finally did it. I am now committed. If I blow it the whole planet will know and I can't have that can I??

[Big o Boy]

Originally posted by Nevermore
a kick in the ass when I need it.

I will be here to provide the ass kicking.

Good luck on your new journal!

Now get in the gym and throw some iron.

[Scott S]

Me too. It's like being naked in a way.

Umm, okay not really.


Are you bulking or cutting?

[Hatred]

Okay as of yesterday to finish up the PM
I am still 23
I weigh 217
BF is still unknown
I worked out chest and was very discouraged
I am starting back up slow and nowhere near as intense as usual...which is rough.. But I do not want to have to take time off again for the Ole' shoulder. Usually do sets of four but again I am taking it easy.

20 min cardio(treadmill)


flat bench
135x15
185x10
185x8x2
pain in shoulder actually still present...so I will be using this weight and just increasing reps until the pain subsides or it falls off and I grow another one. I was working out with 225.
incline BB
135x10(shoulder really giving me problems here.)
135x10
135x8(ouch^%$%*&^!!!!!!)

Dips(bodyweight)
15/12/10/

Fly machine(all that was available)
135x15
165x12
165x10


Meal 4
6 california rolls (sushi) values unknown
1 cup of cottage cheese
2 slices whole wheat bread w/ peanut butter.
12 oz milk
1 can of tuna
1 multivitamin
2 glucosamine/chondroitin
2 ibuprofen

[Hatred]

Oh and I am bulking.
I am going to attempt to see how cleanly I can do it I will keeping tweaking my diet until I find a program that works.
In a few weeks I begin a cycle and once I begin three weightgainer 900 shakes and slim fast and anything else I decide to add will be added .

and I do not understand the naked comment

[Scott S]

It's about exposing otherwise intimate parts of your life that you might not otherwise share with strangers around the globe. Feel free to not read it. Sorry.

[Hatred]

Ahhh understood....

[Big o Boy]

haha... j/k. Those are some nice lifts for your shoulder bothering you. Keep up the hard work. You'll eventually 'grow' another one.

[Hatred]

meal update tomorrow ,cardio tonight. Man I am hungry..
duck sauce and tacobell hotsauce go good together on tuna in the can...

[Hatred]

woke up late today...
threw 2 cups oatmeal in nukebox.
jumped in shower...
ate 2 cups oatmeal 1 cup cottage cheese
2 pieces wheat bread w/peanut butter
got to work and inhaled 1 can of tuna.

will have to go home for lunch...dammit
after work I will be doing arms tonight<after laundry and .....eating of course>
I am usually pretty good about keeping shoulder involvement out of my exercises so there will be no excuse for being a pussy..

[Hatred]

Lunch.
I just went to Kash N' Karry
(GHETTO)(This place is a $hithole so you would think the food was cheap..NO)
I'll stick with wal-mart.

2 4 oz cups of yogurt
about a cup and a half of 1% cottage cheese(knk brand. Sodium content is through the roof)never again.
1 cup of apple sauce.
2 burritos(not my favorite bu was prolly the healthiest thing I read at the store. carbs are a little high but they had 4 g of protein and like 2% of my daily value of vit C!!!!!

[Hatred]

For I do not need them....:evillaugh

meal 1
1 can tuna
1 peach
1 slim fast
1 cup yogurt
late again so I left

yesterday's meals were consumed all throughout the day.(people at work look at me funny) I always have something edible nearby or am always in the bathroom...
I annihilated the last of those two burritos'
2.5 cups of cottage cheese
2 yogurts
2 slim fast shakes
1 eggroll tuttut i know....
some general tso's left over from manager's lunch...Iknow
and a diet coke......

workout: attempt number 2
(attempt 1 was 8:45 the night before...I was doing my laundry over by my friends house which has a Gold's right there. I was told it was 24 hrs. Put in a load O' laundry ,went to gold's ran for 20 min,got on the standing preacher bench
75x20
105x8x2
and the damn music shuts off.
I look at the guy and say"U r not a 24 hr gold's are you ?
"no"

#2
10 min warmup on treadmill
standing preacher curl. (no knee bending to assist)tuttut
75X20
105x10
105x8
105x6

Close grip bench
135x20
155x13
155x12
155x8
this is where I noticed that my stabilizer muscles are weak...I really had to work to keep strict form. This is the first I have really incorporated close grip and will work on it due to this fact. I believe as Twisted Dendrite pointed out that the weak stabilizers are what facked up my shoulder.


hammer curls on incline bench
45x13
45x12
45x10
45x8 (pretty sure I turned purple)

Dips(bodyweight)216
15/13/12/12
<I believe this is what initially hurt my shoulder>

one arm curls on one O" them selectorized weight cam machine thingies(will get name later)
65x10
65x8
65x6.5 (wrists actually started hurting here,never hurt before

Tricep pushdowns
210
11/9/9/7
standing ez bar curl
75x8
75x6
75x6

Overhead tricep extension(standing,cuz a hottie was on the little bench/thusly I felt like my obliques were going to rip.
35x10/9/9

forearm curls
60lbs x
30
16 painful
12 FEEL THE BURN!!!!!!

This I NEVER tried before But will continue to do

5 lbs >>yes 5 lbs<< I felt so F'in retarded....
5lb barbell(ivanko) I think and hope it was more
reverse wrist curls.
8/8/6-dropped bar in agony--

U shoulda seen me try to pick my keys off the hook up front afterward. I was looking for the plate-on-a-rope-on-a-stick but it's gone. all in all I felt great

went home slammed some glucosamine,400mg Ibuprofen,and a multivitamin...
which was threatening to make me puke unless I ate something

4egg whites,a can of tuna and some TABASCO

felt better.

[Hatred]

I wish I had a PC at home...
Saturday was shoulder day.
This I expected to be interesting.
Having come to the conclusion my stabilizers were weak I decided to focus on these a little.

Flat bench warmup
135 x 15
155x10
185 x 8
(Kinda freaked as this was a genuine struggle)I know I lost strength from taking a break to let my shoulder heal but....Damn.

DB press. I never do DB presses. Well I do now.. this is embarrassing and further confirms the weak stabilizer thing.

flat db press
65x10
65x8
65x8
65x7

incline DB press
65 x 8
65x 8
65x 6

Frt lateral raises
20 x 10
20x 10
20 x 10
20 x 10

side lateral raises
25x 10
25x10
25x8
25x8

upright rows
110 x 11
110 x 10
110x 9
110 x 7.5

shrug machine
315x 12
315x12
315x11
315x12

rear delt flys(machine)
165 x 12
165 x 10
165 x 9or 8can't remember

after it was all said and done I had no shoulder pain

[Hatred]

YAY !! BACK DAY!


Lat pulldowns
130 x 20
150 x 15
160 x 8
160 x 7

Rows
160 x 12
160 x 9
160 x 9
160 x 7 1/8

Deadlifts -hexbar
225 x 20 (# 20 =fight for life)
225 X 7


Preacher curl for $hits and giggles
70 X 12
70 X 12
70 x 9

went home...

ate ;
4 egg whites,1 yolk
1 can of tuna
1 slice of bread
1 chicken breast.
glass O milk

[d-bol_dale]

Looks like a decent back day but what type of rows are those stats for. Strange combo for your post training feed dude.

[Hatred]

Yeah tell me about it . Beginning of the month all the bills hit and this is what is left in my fridge. I was in a hurry .
Not so much strange as bland. Thank god for tabasco.
It would usually consist of a protein shake with peanut butter in it.
a few chicken breasts......Actually ,....wait this is normally what I eat but usually in much larger amounts.
I do not have a whole lot of time to prepare complex savory dishes so variety and flavor are sacrificed.
My diet mostly consists of the $hit at the top of the post.

what would you recommend?

[Hatred]

Sorry...cable rows

[d-bol_dale]

Im a big fan of steak when cash allows. Also for a postworkout meal I thought the carbs should have been higher to replace lost glycogen. Maybe replace that glass off milk with some fruit ju7ice or even better a piece of fruit.

[Hatred]

After this friday it will be all good.
I was thinking more along the lines of a ground beef burger on the grill .(protein,carbs)
I am so hungry right now. One of the thinngs you never really consider beforehand. is much like a bigger engine your body needs more fuel as you grow.
My whole life is like centered around eating..I get hungry every two hours and damn it get out of my way if I miss a meal.

I swear I get all dizzy if I don't eat every three hrs. at least. I gotta go stomach's growling

[Hatred]

This weekend was $hit. I swear I lost ten lbs....
On the way to the bank I witnessed a 12 yr old kid on a bike go zipping out into traffic right behind an escort and RIGHT in front of an expedition going like thirty.It knocked him straight down and out of his shoes..........It was hilarious!!!!
He got up and ran around in circles holding his ass.

Subsequently .....on the way back from the bank a sensor on my car failed I overheated and blew a head gasket.

I swapped it in about 7 hrs but I did not eat right all weekend and had to prioritize this before the gym. I know....
I feel skinny and had nightmares about it...
Back to the gym today...hittin hard and eatin like a damn horse..

[Hatred]

I tripped and fell on a syringe filled with tren/test. Now I am eating everything in sight.

Chest day.
Flat bench
135x15
185x10
205x7
205x5

Incline dumbell press. 55's
10/10/7/10....

Dips(bodyweight)
15/12/10/10

Flys on this weird ass cable machine
60?? felt heavy enough so OK.......
12/10/10/8

By some miracle of god I weigh 211. Overall between cycles I lost 4 lbs. Most likely due to not eating properly on a few occasions
I am regaining my strength from my shoulder injury.
Overall last night I felt awesome.
went home and my neighbor knocks on my door and asks if I want a steak.. Hmmmmmmmmm lemme think about that.
It was probably the best steak I have ever had..especially at 12:30 in the morning..Stayed up and made a big pot of spaghetti with 4 lbs of grd chuck for the next few days.

[Hatred]

Woke up feeling really groggy. Killed the alarm a few times.

Meal 1
big bowl of spaghetti.
1c of cottage cheese
1 c of yogurt

supps.
glucosamine chondroitin
milk thistle
multivitamin
nolvadex

[Big o Boy]

Nice lifts dude.

p.s. your avatar is uh.... distracting... me.

[Hatred]

Thanx dude.........
My shoulder has not been giving me any problems thus far= me happy..
I am still nowhere near the hulking beast of a man that I want to be though...In spite of the fact that I doubled the dosage of my Flintstone's chewable vitamins. Today is arm day...YAY!!

So far I have devoured :
a big ass tupperware thing of ground beef with spaghetti in it
A tub of yogurt
some cottage cheese
and I think one of the cans of tuna on my desk is talking smack to me and must be dealt with accordingly.TAKE that !! Bizzatch!!

<NOTICE> The lack of quantities...
That is because I no longer care. I no longer eat...I consume .....in a vain attempt to fill the cavernous void that is my stomach. I swear I have yet to achieve that full feeling dammit. I take one bite and have to $hit. it's like a neverending cycle.
Tonight I am going to wear depends and go to a buffet somewhere. That'll alleviate the lightning fast metabolism issue.HAH!

[Big o Boy]

rofl... good luck.

Lemme know how the flintstone's are doing ya too... I may have to steal my lil bro's if your noticing anything good from them.