As you know college and highschool alike start for most everyone who's going in the next week. I had to go over for a few hours Saturday and a few hours Sunday for "Orientation".
This is going to be a lengthy post probably a great reason for a lot of you to think I'm a total loser and pay even less attention then you already do (or none at all) to me.
The basic gist of the whole weekend was to sort of break the ice. 95% of the time and activities were specifically for you to meet the other "Freshmen" I say freshmen but I should actually be two years ahead of the game. I'll be a 21 year old freshmen but I figure better late then never. As most of you probably know that I was (up until today) a VERY anti social person. I'm not quite sure even why myself, but I was just outside of my comfort zone most of the time unless I was talking to the same 4-6 people in highschool out of like 100 times that many kids (small highschool). So I never had a girlfriend during highschool, never went to any proms or anything like that. Never even had "good" friends and the only reason I probably talked to anyone was that I played football due to my above average size and strength.
I found my first girlfriend at the end of February beginning of march this year and it ended (with my heart being broken) 3 months after. I'm still a virgin if its relevant to this story.
So at first I was kinda not getting into the whole "forced socializing" scene this weekend but after a little while I was like **** it, these 3000 or so kids know nothing of my past and I can make my time here what I want it to be. I start socializing we had a few activities where we danced. I actually participated and most times ended up dancing with some decently hot chicks who to my amazement didn't seem like stuck up bitches.
The afternoons going great, its the last seminar of the night. We're taking our seats and these two decent looking girls come down the isle and the one says "Can I sit by you"? I almost looked behind me in disbelief she was talking to me. So my friends sitting at the very end of this row, I'm sitting beside him and two hot chicks come down and one ask if she can sit by ME. Of course I say sure and she starts talking to me, introduces herself. Asks where I went to highschool, she told me where she went. I'm oblivious at this point as to whats really going on. Several times throughout she'd talk to me or I'd talk to her and it was chill, things were cool. She then says "Where are you watching the Steeler game at?"
Without missing a beat I say "probably at my house". She's like you commute and right at that point I realized what I just did.
Instead of saying "I don't know where are you watching it at?" which would have probably led to me watching it with her in her dorm room (and with any luck more then that, she was after all basically hitting on me) I say "at my house"... I might as well have just said that "I like men" or "Have sex with some other guy"
Being a commuter is very lame for one but if it weren't lame enough I finish the job off. I go from girls not even TALKING to me to this scene before school even STARTS!!!! I didn't realize it was possible for one person to be this much of a loser. To ice this cake, an "exercise" related to the semiar I was in was that you had to give someone a back massage and she gave me one... you could pick anyone you wanted to.
So have I single handedly screwed up my entire college experience in less then one hour and cemented being a friendless virgin for at least the next four years? I'm hoping to god this chick just shrugs it off and doesn't really pick up on what happened and doesn't tell all her friends about the "werido" she tried to pick up.
I'm seriously considering living on campus next year. Its more money, I only live 20 min away and all that good crap but I can't help feeling like had I been staying on campus from the bat that I'd be balls deep by now and not sitting here typing on the internet.