3.14.08 - Prayers, Vitamins, & Lots of Luck
Where do I start? I've been a member of WWB for quite a while. Some of you may remember my old journal. "mic soloist's road to swoll." I started lifting about 5 years ago. I went from 155 up to 220 naturally other than a 3 week superdrol cycle.
5'10 218 pounds
BB Bench: 315
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About 20 months ago I started noticing pain in my sternoclavicular area. I'd been maxing out on bench a lot and being pretty unsafe working out. Since then I've every test from x-rays, heart tests, MRIs, etc. and basically been told it's a stress injury and it'll take a long time to recover. Never given much of a solid answer....
due to this and huge increase in work hours (i'm a manager with Urban Active Fitness) I've been basically pathetic with workouts for nearly a year. I still weigh 208 but I look much smaller due to decrease in muscle and increase in BF%. Plus I'm in terrible cardio shape.
At this point I'm just worried about health and recovery. My job is insanely stressful and I work 10-12 hours per day 6 days per week in sales, marketing, management, etc.
I just had a 26 year old friend die of a heart attack and that kind of thing scares me. I also have anxiety and I'm a hypocondriac (sp). I constantly think something's wrong with me and being out of shape doesn't help. I would like to shed a lot of body fat and try to get somewhat back into weight lifting shape as well. Sadly my workouts are going to be more "rehab" like at this point since everything hurts. Luckily I work for a company that operates 70,000 sq. ft. clubs with the newest machines, cardio, pools, bball, etc. So it's custom made for people in my kinda shape... The hardest part for me now is motivation to fight through and work out when I'm very tired...
In the past I was really concerned with the way I looked and how strong I was. Now I could really care less. I'm married now, I work a ton, and in my career your job depends on your sales numbers and your hair, dress, etc. a lot more than the shape you're in. (sadly since it's a gym). I don't want to look like S**t but I really don't study myself in the mirror like I used to.
So I'm going to log everything in here as best I can. I really need support so I hope you guys & gals find my journal interesting. I'm also going to give some insight about health club work life so it may be kind of interesting like a reality show at times... (i hate reality shows btw). But I'll try to make this thing interesting and now boring. Here goes...