Ok here goes, again:
I am torn with my goals as of this Saturday I am 14 weeks out from Musclemania. Because of some misguided information, I had to miss this show in 2000, thus I am feeling the desire to go back and do what I had intened to do in 2000.
My coach is very much against me doing this event. He wants me to have some much needed physical and mental time off from the precontest parade. So I said ok, however in my heart I really want to do this, so here is the game plan. I am going to diet, train, sleep and supplement with total preparation for this show and about 4 weeks out mail him photos and TELL him I am going and he needs to help finish me off. Note how brave I am typing this without him seeing it. ( I hope my clients, never learn this behavour)
Because of my wonderful, I want to be fat body. I have to dial this all in very smoothly so I do not lose as much muscle as I have in the past dieting and doing to much cardio, so slow and steady needs to be my thoughts, and always in focus
So goals for tomorrow 1-21-01
200 grams of protein- all from white fish
30 grams of fat- no peanut butter, flax only.
Celery as carb source- stop laughing.
2 gallons of H2O
The reason for the harshness in the diet- to re-establish my mental edge and determination of my mind & heart to my goal.
1 hour of cardio- split in two sessions-(maybe 1.5)
I WILL NOT get on the scale all week.
I WILL NOT look at myself in the mirror until Wednesday or Thursday of this week
I WIll dress completely covered ( like a hag-at the gym) so no one will ask me, like they where last week if I was getting ready again.)
I will eat all my meals on time, even if I have to stay up late.
I will take all my supplements on time.
I will stop and breath today and be thankful for my ability to train,diet and be healthy.
I will write my leg workout before going to bed tonight 1-20-01
I will commit to updating this journal daily for myself and only myself.
I will NOT allow others to create pressure for me and cause my preparation to be side track from lack of "total me" focus.
I will NOT allow any boyz to side track me or my training, or sleep.
I will update this journal tomorrow evening, be commitment to being a good role model for everyone that who thinks they can't to know they can!
I WILL believe in myself and my abiltiy to make this happen for me.