I'm new here. And love this forum. Been lurking for a while. I have been exercising for some time (walking 5 mph, exercising on a schwinn airdyne). Although, I did go on an 8 year hiatus. I use to be an aerobic instructor and also did some weight training for 11 years. About 9 years ago just walked away from everything.
About two weeks ago I joined a gym. I have been going on M/W/F and either Saturday or Sunday. (It was depressing...only because I'm not strong like I use to be...wonder why...lol) Anyway I want to start taking things serious again. The workout won't be a problem. I am usually easily motivated to work out. My problem is my diet. My eating SUCKS!!!! Let me tell you why. I have an eating disorder and have had for 23 years..long time huh. Bulimia with bouts of anorexia. I am so motivated to work out but can't seem to be motivated enough to eat healthy so my workouts can improve. I will never gain any strength or muscle the way I have been eating.
Last week I met with a RD and she is going to work on a meal plan for me. Five meals p/day. Ok. I think I can handle that... She is going to set it up on a 2000 p/day intake. Is this too much? I am 5'8" and weigh 120 lbs. Up from 112 two months ago. I think I could be okay with a weight gain if I knew it was muscle mass. Not fat (which is what my recent 8 lb gain is).
Another question....has anyone here recovered from an eating disorder. If so what was your motivation.. I see a therapist and a psychiatrist (I am also major depressive disorder and borderline personality disorder) I am currently on medication that seem to have that aspect under control. I just can't get a handle on the eating. Well I have rambled long enough and probably told you all more than you wanted to know, but I could sure use your input.