Hey ya'll. Long time no see. These past few months have been the hardest I've ever gone through. Back when I last posted, I was doing really well for myself in most of my aspects of life. It all came crashing down pretty fast, though, hence my long absence. I apologize to all of you that were supporting me. I should've offered an explanation for my departure.
Anyway, I guess I'll bring you up to speed. When summer started, I broke up with my girlfriend. She had moved back to Houston for the summer, and I was having a really hard time dealing with a distance relationship. On top of that, *every* other important person in my life wanted me to end it. It was very difficult because I loved (and still love) her so much, and all of my friends and family disapproved of her. I had to choose between the girl I loved and my family and friends. I think I made the right decision by choosing my family and friends, but it sent me into a pretty severe depression. I stopped working out, I started drinking heavily, and neglected just about all responsibility that existed in my life.
I also found out that I was taking everything else I had for granted. All of my life, my parents have been well-off, and have supported me heavily. Well, shortly after my girlfriend and I split, my mom resigned from her job and turned everything around for me. I'm no longer on the easy road. I'm finally having to take responsibility for myself. Its time for me to grow up.
So what exactly does this mean to me? Well, I've no longer been drinking. I'm really doing my damndest to stay sober and on top of things. I've also been seeking employment just about everywhere I can think of here in Corpus Christi. I've started really busting my ass in school, because I might as well get all I can out of the education I'm paying for. Last, but certainly not least, I'm lifting and dieting again. It has been a very tough and trying transition for me, but every day I'm feeling better and better about myself.
A few nights ago, I was browsing one of my old journals, and I compiled a collection of quotes by some of you who posted in my journal and a few that I made. I read them every day, and they have been an enormous source of inspiration for me. Thank you for all who have posted in my previous journals. It hasn't fallen on deaf ears.
So, I'm giving it another go. I feel like I've matured into a very different person, but I still feel the drive I had the first day I started lifting. Let's get it started.