Bleh. Maybe I'm posting for a kick in the ass to motivate me or something, but maybe someone shares in my frustration.
Broke my ass all summer lifting every other day religiously, never missing meals, eating protein out the ass and back again.
And it worked. I went from 5'10, 145 to 163 pounds. My bench shot up, I looked good with a tee shirt on, the whole gig, and things were great.
But how quickly we lose things. Sometimes I feel like my body eats itself. Like it WANTS me to be skinny. For just three weeks I cut back slightly. I could only lift once a week and had to, for the first time in half a year, eat normally and not in excess.
So now I'm back down to 153/154 and can barely rep bench 3 or 4 times what I was doing 12 times a month ago.
It could be seasonal depression or something. I hear that can have an effect on your metabolism, motiviation, and such.
Its times like this I feel I should give up and be doomed to being a twig for the rest of my life. Whats the point in working so hard if it all just melts off of you in a tenth of the time it takes you to get it?