Hello everyone. This is my first post. I am in my 30's and I have always wanted to be big, and ripped. I have attempted to build up many times over the years. Each time with little to no success. Admittedly, I have never stuck with a routine for more than 6 months. I just don't see ANY improvement. I weigh 200 lbs, and I'm lucky if I can bench 140. I am out of shape at 6 feet tall, and 200 lbs. I have a poor diet, and I'm just sooo disgusted with myself. Looking in a mirror depresses me. I have an old man "pot belly", and jelly bean arms. I do own a home gym machine, but I cannot afford a gym membership. What I am asking for is advice. PLEASE tell me how to get started. I know that if I see improvements, I will stick with it. I know nothing about what I should be doing. Please help.