This has been a thorn in my side for 5 years now. I've quit once or twice for up to 3/4 months. I've always blamed something stupid for my relapse though, and I know they are all just excuses.
What sucks the most, is that now I am bettering myself physically through lifting and eating cleanly, but I'm still offsetting that with smoking. I want to quit, for good, for life. Smoking constricts the blood vessels in your body which decreases blood flow and I think it is responsible for my long recovery time in between workouts. It also has it's effect on my CNS and lung capacity. I'm tired of it.
I thought to myself, what better way than to start a journal, where I know I will receive peer motivation and praise, as well as a few harsh words if I continue to fail. I don't plan on failing.
Last time I quit, I used Chantix which is a VERY expensive new drug that tackles nicotine differently than the patch. Instead of replacing nicotine, like Nicoderm and Nicorette, it actually blocks the nicotine from entering the brain. You are supposed to take 2 pills a day for 6 months, continue to smoke for the first week, and even though you are smoking, your body will not receive the benefit of nicotine, effectively quitting nicotine cold turkey.
Chantix has worked for me before in December, but my wife cheated and left me, which I used as another excuse to start up again. That bitch isn't going to run my life anymore, so it's not even a bad excuse to continue smoking.
The drug comes in 1 week packets so it is easy to administer. I will be starting it on Sunday, April 15th. I plan on updating this journal with the amount I have been smoking, and the feelings I'm having as I go through withdrawals. Also I will account for the great feeling I have to see it stop affecting my lifts and recovery times.
I appreciate ANY and ALL input including but not limited to, "You are an idiot for smoking this long!", "Be a man and just quit!", etc.
Please be with me through this endeavor!